Turning Away from the Ashes of Doubt

The Lord brought me to 2 Samuel 23:8 this morning. He highlighted the name "Adino." In David's army, Josheb-basshebeth a Tahchemonite was the chief of the captains. He was also called Adino, because of the 800 men slain by him at one time. Adino means "his spear", and the Hebrew root word (adin) means "slender" or "delicate." I find this interesting because his nature was formidable, as warriors are known to be, but it was by his "spear" the 800 men were slain.

This reminds me of Moses. Moses was also known to be formidable. It was when he killed the Egyptian that he became formidable to his own peers, and this was before the exodus. Later, when he came back to lead God's people out of Egypt, it was by his staff that the Red Sea was parted. And then there was Paul who was called Saul before Jesus equipped him with the faith required to accomplish the assignment given him.

Of course, none of this was possible except with and by God. Just like the spear, the staff, and the faith, we are given tools, which is illustrated by these stories. These tools that God blesses us with is an extension of our faith, and God is the author of that same faith. Every believer is armed by God with tools tailored specifically to the person, according to their faith. The tools we wield differ from one person to the next, are similar by contrast, and every believer shares the same captain, who is Jesus Christ.

Jesus Seeks Your Well-being

 As I woke up this morning, a message from God was imprinted on my heart.  The Lord told me, "You have made me very glad, as you yourself have given with a cheerful heart.  It's time to break off that heaviness in your heart.  I am invading your heart and loosing in it my joy.  Rejoice!  This is a time for celebration.  It doesn't have to make sense, only that you believe me.  That is my desire for all of you.

 Remember when I told you two years ago that it is for my benefit I do this and not yours?  You made me very proud when you didn't hold my words against me.  I am doing a new thing, do you not perceive it?  Look at your heart now.  So fertile.  So beautiful.  I, the Lord have done this, and it is good.  Just like when I was near the Sea of Gennesaret, I, too have chosen your heart for good works.

 I know things haven't also been easy for you, but still you remain faithful to me.  This brings my heart great joy!  Despite your shortcomings, you still show up everyday and do right by my Father.  You do right by my children.  You have provided for the poor, when you yourself were poor.  Do not think I have not noticed.  I see you.  I love you.  Do not let the troubles of this world infect your heart.  Keep abiding in me.  As we abide in each other, my heart is revealed to those who cannot yet see me.  The world may count you worthless and a cheap rag to discard, but it is not so with me.

You are my beloved.  I love you.  You are mine."

Keep Guard and Observe

 I had a rough day yesterday.  Yesterday, I had a doctors appointment.  Everything was going smooth all the way up to me walking into the doctors office.  That's when everything began to shift.  Now, I didn't expect this visit to be a poor experience, but it turned into just that.  My doctor began to ask me questions, and as soon as I would begin to answer, she would cut me off and either tell me that's not what she asked or go on to her next question-without even looking at me.  This continued for several questions.  My chart wasn't even current, all the way back to when I was still in service.  I thought to myself, "How is that possible?  Did they somehow erase everything?"

 She has been refusing services for months-any requests I made known for my current conditions.  And so after several minutes of her being ingenuine with me, I became frustrated.  So, I confronted her about it and that's when she looked at me and sneered, "We don't do easy fixes over here!"  That was the last straw.  I said, "You people are quick to prescribe drugs that only make my conditions worse, which is an easy fix.  But I have been requesting a knee brace replacement for several months and you haven't lifted so much as a finger to help me."  She said, "Yes they told me, and I said no, he has to come see me.  I'm not going to put it in until he contacts me."  I then said, "I did.  I called your office but I can never get ahold of you."  She said, "No.  You have to schedule an appointment, not just call me."

 It continued like that for quite awhile, the back in forth between us, until finally she said, "Quit yelling at me, or I'm going to ask you to leave."  I became infuriated.  She knew she was wrong and she used her position to shame me.  She began to play the victim because I was calling her out on being unprofessional, rude and a liar.  I said, "I'm not yelling at you.  I'm raising my voice because you're not listening.  THIS! Is yelling."  She kicked me out.  I was wrong.  I shouldn't have taken it that far.  But it didn't stop there.  The moment I allowed my rage to reign is when I began to spiral.  Guilt and shame began to attack me to the point I had no desire to pray and I couldn't hear God clearly.  God is good though.  He sent me several random people to approach me and treat me with kindness.  I began to calm down and then I called my family.

 We do not wrestle against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil in the unseen realms and heavenly places.  I didn't cover myself before I left my home.  I didn't pray.  I stepped out from the hedge of protection God surrounds me with when I retaliated from a fleshly position.  I payed dearly for it.  There is power in prayer and there is power in the tongue.  I pray this lesson I learned can be of value to your faith walk.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  I love you.  God loves you.  Shalom Shalom

To Curse or to Form

 I was under heavy attack from the enemy yesterday.  I needed prayer and my family prayed for me.  There is power in the tongue.  There is power in prayer.  The prayers of a righteous person are very effective.

 We are made right in God's sight through the blood of Christ and through our faith-that's the definition of righteous.  It is impossible to please God without faith.  And so the definition of self righteous is to be right only with self.  That's why, sometimes-not all the time, prayers are not answered.  Heart posture has a lot to do with it.

 Yes we pray on behalf of ourselves to the Father, but we should gather in Jesus name and pray for others--that's more powerful.  To pray freely for others is a great gift given us by God.  And so it only makes sense that when we choose life, instead of praying by our worldy sight, we are blessed even more.  It's a double edged sword in that respect.

 He has set before us life and death.  So we should choose encouraging life giving words, rather than hurtful death dealing words.  We are blessed or cursed by the intent of our words.  And our words and deeds are a direct reflection of what is in our heart.  I pray this is an encouraging word and edifies your spirit.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  I love you.  God is with you.  Shalom Shalom

The Steadfast Love of God

My sister received a message from God yesterday.  I happened to be on the phone with her when it happened, and upon request, she sent a copy of it to me.  I will do my best to translate the first line of the message.

 

Let us remember as we gather together in the house of the Lord-that is our secret place.  The gift of the Holy Spirit was given us when Christ went to the Father.  After He was crucified, the veil was split in two that we would be delivered into life and not death.  Our Lord Jesus Christ is King, the rock on which we stand.

 

After he was crucified and was risen from the dead three days later, the chains of death no longer had authority.  The sure hope of salvation we now have, on account of Christ, is a gift from God that marks the ending of one age and the beginning of another.

 

We are no longer separated from God but we are made right in His eyes because of the blood of Jesus that now covers us.  Death can no longer ensnare us and the webs of the enemy can no longer entangle us, for we are now caught up in the hands of the Father and entangled in His love.  Thank you Father.  Maranatha.  Come Lord Jesus.

Bursting Forth in the Breach

 There are multiple ways to fast.  Remember when David fasted?  He fasted for seven days as a plea to God on his son's behalf while his son was ill.  Or when Daniel fasted for three weeks, abstaining from the common sustenance the other servants relied on.  How about when Jesus healed the demon possessed boy?  Jesus told his disciples that this kind of possession can only leave by prayer and fasting, and that the disciple's faith was not yet strong enough.  Then there's lamenting-the fast from joy.  This type of fasting is a cry to God, and shows our Father our trust in Him, as He is the author of our faith.

 Then there's the time when God rebukes the ones who fast for the approval of the assembly, and instructs us in the proper way to fast.  All of these are examples and an instruction on the proper way to fast.  God should be the primary overseer.  Fasting builds faith.  Fasting builds our faith in the Lord through the act of faith required for our petition.  Our faith is strengthened through His response and our awareness of it.

 These petitions are not just for our benefit or the benefit of others.  Those benefits are results and a byproduct of our communion with the Father.  And fasting is not only a petition, but a means to draw closer to God.  Jesus also reminds us that persecution will come from the Sadducees and Pharisees-the ones that grieve and oppress us on account of Christ.  The enemy knows when we fast and will attack our faith through the thoughts and questions that surface during our test of faith-like when Jesus fasted in the wilderness when he was tempted by the devil for forty days.  

 So there's spiritual sustenance and then there's earthly sustenance.  All of these are prime examples of how to fast from the ways of this world, and how to rely on the sustenance only the Father can provide.  They are stepping stones for the ones who wish to go higher.  Only through Jesus, and prayer and fasting can we purge the worldy programming within us and our community.  I pray this edifies your spirit.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  I love you.  God is with you.  Shalom Shalom

 

 

Lion of Judah

 Ephphatha.  Be opened.

Refuge In the Lord

 Rapture means a feeling of intense pleasure or joy.  I always had this nagging thought that how I was perceiving Rapture was missing the mark.   

 I remember when I first started walking with Jesus.  When He revealed himself to me.  Before then, and even in my first steps, I thought the Rapture meant God would raise His chosen ones from the grave and into heaven-from a carnal perception.  I thought it was literal.  Well, He is the God of both the first and last, so it is both a spiritual and carnal transliteration.

 Then, together with them, we who are still alive and remain on earth will be caught up in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air.  Then we will be with the Lord forever.  I translate that into:  The Lord and we who remained steadfast and continued to run our race will be caught up in the Lord's hands in the Spirit.

 That's not just my translation but a revelation as the Lord saw fit to give me.  And so I share it with you in hopes that I confirm what the Lord has spoken to you as well.  Iron sharpens iron.  I pray this message encourages you in your faith.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  I love you.  God is for you.  Shalom Shalom

The King Approaches and Makes His Bride Whole

 I remember growing up, I got into trouble all the time.  I was so rebellious.  I was the mischievous one.  I still am in a sense-just different now.  As it goes, "I was one way, and now I'm completely different."

 I didn't like correction.  I ran as far and as fast as I could away in any direction contrary to it.  This perception led me to making many mistakes.  The mistakes then grew into bad decisions.  It's one thing to make a mistake, but continue making the same mistakes and they become bad decisions that lead to poor heart posture.  Had I listened, I'm sure I could have avoided years of unnecessary pain.  Not just myself.  Accepting correction would have prevented years of hurting the ones I love.

 It's not fair.  It always seems to be that the good ones always get hurt the most, to include the ones closest to them.  But there is grace.  Love covers a multitude of sins.  One of the best ways to serve God is to care for family and the ones you love.  I can tell you from personal experience, when you turn away from the crooked ways and start walking in "The Way", forgiveness floods in.  Not just from Jesus, but for self.  And not just for self, but from others.

 I encourage you to have a relationship with the Father and to reconcile yourself to him.  I encourage you to shift from the ways of this world and return to your first love.  Reach out in faith and reach out to family.  You may be pleasantly surprised of what you may find.  I love you.  God is with you.  Shalom Shalom

  

For My Mossy Friends

Moss is pretty cool because it grows on the north side of trees, and was used as a natural compass. It's not picky about where it grows and can pop up just about anywhere. Plus, it does a lot in and for the forest ecosystem, like keeping trees insulated and providing a home for little animals. It's even one of the first plants to show up after a fire or deforestation, helping to stabilize the ground and hold onto water for new growth.

Spiritual Abundance

You belong to the Lord. Your footsteps are ordered by God. It is not by chance that you were led into places and things where death seems to be everywhere, and where slumber reigns. Everyone must be born again. In spirit. Death is necessary. The depletion of the old must take place so that we turn to God and be filled again. New wine for new wineskins. New joy for newborns. Listen to the word of the Lord. As you hear His Word, he will breath His Spirit upon you and your bread will return. Your joy is returned through the enjoining of His Spirit. Amen. He will protect and strengthen you, and he will cover you with His righteousness. The two will become one, and you will know the Lord's Salvation. In Jesus' holy name. Amen. Amen!

The Land of Milk and Honey

 The pain and spiritual warfare you went through wasn't for nothing.  And where you're going, where the Lord is taking you, will require the same faith that got you through.  Your difficult season has produced a field of lilies and dandelions.  Enjoy what the Lord has done.  Welcome to the never ending harvest.  Shalom Shalom

The Tree of Life

 As the Holy Spirit abides in you, fruit will begin to grow.  Remember, even though the fruit may not be evident to the human perception, it is still growing.  Fruit takes time to grow.  The seed must grow into a sapling, the sapling to a tree.  The tree then produces fruit, and the fruit contains seeds.  Those seeds will one day be taken to other locations where they will become a beautiful tree, full of life.  In due season.  Keep growing in the Lord.  Your tree still has leaves, branches, and color.  The Lord is pleased with your aroma.  Keep reaching for the sky.

From Rebellion to Musing With My Creator

 I remember when I was a kid, I was so full of life.  I was so full of energy.  I buzzed around here to there, there to here and back.  Just like a bee flying around from flower to flower.  No one knew where I'd fly to next.  It seemed chaotic, almost pure randomness-even to me.  As I grew into a young man, those traits were still inherent in my mannerisms.  Yet, I slowly began to forget the light of truth within myself.  

 Slowly but surely, the love in my heart began to grow cold.  My attention began to turn into obsession.  Self exaltation was growing into an ever part of my life.  I fed it.  It felt good to feel right and not wrong.  The more someone tried to correct my behaviors, the more I became disobedient.  I thought, "This doesn't feel good, so this must be wrong."  That's where self exaltation began to manifest in me and grow.  It grew because I believed that feeling.  And that applies to anything in life.  If a person believes something, it will become a truth-a false truth at best. The false truths I fed led me down a road where God was difficult to perceive. 

 He had taken away my bread and I didn't even realize it.  He took away what little I had left.  Slowly but steadily.  I lived a long time without knowing God.  Even as a child I was gifted.  I took His gifts for granted.  I didn't understand that these blessings were from the Father-not me.  I didn't understand because I didn't want to understand.  And that was reflected by my heart posture, my speech, and my everyday dealings.  I didn't understand because I didn't believe Jesus.  As he began to reveal himself to me, I slowly began to believe.  How could I not?  He became an undeniable presence in my life.  He took away my bread and returned to me His bread.  He returned to me His presence.

 Jesus has delivered me from much.  I still struggle, as we all do.  Though now that He has given me new life in Him, I can breathe again.  And it feels like breathing for the first time.  I exalt the name of the Lord.  I lift him high, high as I'm able to.  A new song is coming from my heart and it is a lovely tune that brings me peace.  Hail to the One who saves.  His mercy endures forever.  I pray this testimony blesses your heart.  I love you.  God is with you.  Shalom Shalom

On Account of Christ

Parents. Love your children. Show them the love of the Father. Look at them. Really see them. We are created in God's image. When we look at one another, we are not just looking. We are seeing the Father in each other. Likewise, show your children that you truly see them as God's creation. Cherish them. When we do it unto these little ones, we do it to Jesus.

If we don't steward the love of the Father within our children, it makes it more difficult for them to see themselves. And if they can't see themselves, they learn not to look at themselves. And when they learn not to look at themselves, all they will see are the ones around them.

Then, sometime later in life, the grief can no longer be hidden away under the surface. Since they can not see themselves properly, it begins to enjoin with the pain that comes from that. This is how pointing fingers, misplaced blame, and the persecution of others begin to manifest. They are unable to face the truth within themselves because they have forgotten. All they can feel is the pain, and all they can see is red. The love they once had in their hearts begins to grow cold. The lights in their eyes begin to dim, and they fail to give its light-In the light of day or in the dark of night.

Gather your children to you as the Father has gathered you unto himself. Show them the love He has freely given you. Stewarding love stewards trust, the two together build faith and reinforce the truth of Christ. I love you. God is with you. Shalom Shalom

I Drank Deep the Wrath of God

 Up until recently, I thought I knew what was going on in my life and why.  I was so sure.  Arrogance.  I have been arrogant and evil toward God and his people.  The truth is I didn't know what was happening to me or why.  God placed inside me his wrath, and he made me drink deep.  I was drunk on his wrath.  My debt piling higher and higher every passing year, to the point of death.  To the point of death spiritually and physically.  Sin was eating me alive from the inside out.  Sin alienated me from God.  Yes, we all sin, but I knew better.  I was shown how to properly conduct myself but I was too proud and too cold in my heart to kneel.  Oh how he has beat me.  Beaten me down and out.  Hallelujah!  He has been beating the warp out of my loom for a minute.  Decades.  It's been a process that nearly took me out.  I didn't want to know God or His Son.  I didn't want to forgive people and I became a collector of debt.  I counted the debts of others and charged interest.  I have been unjust.  He has shown me many mercies and I abused his grace.  I became comfortable hurting people.  I refused to love him or his children.  Now, I drink deep the cup of His Peace.  Blessed are you, Lord our God, King of the Universe, who creates the fruit of the vine.  I pray this testimony brings healing and clarity.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  Shalom Shalom

The Only Dictionary We Need

 The word of God is the only dictionary we need.  It's a technical manual that covers a myriad of life topics and challenges we will face along the way.  It teaches us how to write and write in alignment with God.  It teaches us how to speak and speak in alignment with God.  It illustrates the substance of God and his kingdom through stories and parables.

 He gives a revelation to one and a different revelation to another in all of his teachings.  It teaches us how to trust in him through the stories, and through the characters that overcame and walked in victory.  It indicates seasons of our life through the seasons others before us have walked into and through.  It teaches us the different languages he speaks, not only with stories but in the realm of the numerical as well.  There's a number attached to every word in the bible.  The Strong's concordance covers this.  

 It teaches us how to unravel his mysteries that would otherwise remain a mystery.  It teaches us how to operate in his will for our life.  It teaches us how to function within relationships and how to properly conduct oneself.  It teaches us how to love with his love.  It teaches us how to have compassion and show mercy.  It teaches us how to be better parents and children.

 There are so many wonderful revelations waiting for you, but so I don't ramble on, I'll leave it here.  I love you and encourage you to seek his wisdom and a relationship with him.  That act of faith may be just the remedy you are searching for.  Reverence for God is now our desire and His delight. God bless you.  Shalom Shalom

The Manna of Christ

 I ran into an old friend the other day, a brother in Christ.  We go back a few years but it has been two years since I've seen him.  I took that as a sign from God that it is time to reintegrate into the church community.  He spoke words of healing and encouragement and told me many people of the congregation are always praying for me and speak good things about me.

 For the past couple years I didn't return to the church because of persecution.  I was glad to discover I was wrong. It wasn't the persecution of others I was perceiving but the condemnation that comes from sin.  My sinful living was causing internal shame and condemnation, and in turn I perceived it as it being projected onto me from others.  I was wrong.

 I went to church again today and found this to be true.  I remember when I used to attend church.  There were many tears-tears of grief.  Years of grief condensing and pouring out of me.  Today there were many tears.  The difference is, they were tears of joy.  It felt good to fellowship with my brothers and sisters.  Self alienation brought that into perspective for me.  Even in the midst of sharing praise of the Father with others.  I didn't care who saw me crying.  I no longer cared to discern whether people were for me or against me because after all that he has brought me through, I no longer wonder-I know God is for me.

 I found myself contemplating this earlier today and I thought to myself, "When did this happen?  When did he remove my old garments of shame?  When did this transition take place"?  The power of Christ, and the power of prayer and compassion go a long way.  I chose to believe that what my friend was saying was true, rather than leaning on my own observations.  This brought healing to my heart.  Because I believed, I went back to church, and Christ proved true through my friends once I went back.  It is a burden lifted to know that I am not alienated from the assembly of Christ.  It truly was a day of healing and joy.  I pray this testimony of Christ and reunion blesses you.  I love you.  Shalom Shalom

The Enjoining

 I was on a morning walk earlier and I came across this sign outside someone's house.  It read: "If God was here, will you help him?  Yes or no?  I immediately declared that God is here.  I wish they were present so I could tell them that God is here.  We serve a living God and the living God lives within us.  With every breath.  With every beat of the drum that is our heart.  I wanted to share these revelations with them.  So I share it with you.

 The Samaritan woman by the well had to go later in the heat of the day to gather water from the well of Jacob.  Jesus asked her for a drink of water and he gave the woman a drink of his water.  He shared the good news with her that is living water.  He told her that people would no longer worship on mountains or in Jerusalem but that they would soon worship the Father in Spirit and in truth.

 If God was here, would you help him?  We help him by sharing the good news with others.  A time is coming and indeed it is now here when peoples from all corners of the earth will draw water from Christ's well.  They will be reconciled to the Father and they will draw close to him while it is still cool in the day.  The old evidence of our fathers makes us thirst for more, leading us to the living waters of Jesus-the new evidence.

 The stories in the bible are not just things of the past.  The living word of God lives in our everyday lives.  God's word lays out his faithfulness through the stories, and promises and promises fulfilled.  They are stepping stones for many who do not yet know Jesus.  They are reminders for everyone through the revelation of Christ. 

 As we go to our secret place, where our treasures cannot be stolen and where his cistern does not fail us, we come back with a bubbling spring of water within us and overflows onto others.  The enjoining of His Spirit is near and not far, for He is a God that is near and not far.  God be with you.  I love you.  Shalom Shalom

Spiritual Paralysis

 Who among you finds themselves paralyzed by division?  Of others?  Within yourself?  I, too suffer from paralysis but Jesus makes me well.  His word helps me through my trials of feuding.  There are many forms spiritual paralysis may manifest.  One of the main ones for me is the conflict within myself-deciphering God's will for my life and my beliefs contrary to it.  It has lead me down a path that results in conflict not only with others, but as internal dilemmas that lead to moral decay that is doubt.

God tells us that there will be division within kingdoms and houses.  From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three-this is indicated in Luke 12:52.   Every city or house divided against itself will not stand-this is indicated in Matthew 12:25.  In John 5:5 God said, "Now a certain man was there who had an infirmity thirty-eight years."

Do you recognize a pattern in these scriptures?  A pattern within your own life and experiences?  Jesus came to bring a sword, not peace, and it is our responsibility to choose peace.  This is a difficult task.  The message of Christ we share may not be received with open arms and that lines up with what God has told us.  We are but human, and Jesus was too.  He shows me even though he brings division, he also gives us peace to bring to these situations.  I will stand in faith, pick up my cross and walk in peace.  We will stand in faith, pick up our cross, and walk in peace.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  I love you.  Shalom Shalom

The Final Sacrifice

 In earlier times, a spotless lamb without defect was required for sin offerings.  Later, Jesus, the Lamb of God, came into the world as a man to walk among us.  He was later crucified and killed for the sins of many so that we may have salvation through the sacrifice of God's only son.  This fulfilled God's will.  

What's not often talked about is the time in between sacrificing animals and sacrificing Christ.  The sacrifice of animals began to turn into the sacrifice of God's children.  I believe it is not often spoken about because it was not a physical sacrifice that many can perceive with their senses.  It was a spiritual sacrifice that was beginning to happen through labeling people "clean" or "unclean", and it still happens to this day in religious gatherings. 

Did they not also make these observations for their sin offerings?  Yes, as God directed, but the minds of men began to prevail because they leaned on their own understanding.  Six hundred thirteen laws to obey that caused oppression rather than liberation.  That's why God kept it simple with the ten commandments when instructing the Israelites after the exodus.  But when his commandments were turned into a burden he sent his Son, Jesus the Messiah.  Jesus said, "I require mercy not sacrifice".  The final sacrifice to cover the sins of many, that his people would receive salvation through his Son and stop the sacrifices of his children.  He did this to instruct us in his way, the way that leads to mercy.  

Jesus of Nazareth

Can anything good come from Nazareth?  That was the typical response of people who had never heard of Jesus, to include his own followers.  And he is so good.  Nazareth is a city in northern Israel.  Our hearts are a city within the temple of God-God's country.  And I now ask-albeit with irony, "Can anything good come from Nazareth?  Can anything good come from your heart?"  Many people then and many people now ask these questions in their heart about others.  They ask, "Where is the fruit"?  They have judged people and God by their own understanding.  Even Jesus wasn't recognized or accepted.  Even by his works, he was not accepted or recognized.  So take heart, hold your peace and do the will of the Father.  Your works and faithfulness are not discounted because others cannot perceive Christ in you.  If they recognized Christ, they would not behave so shamefully.  And it is not your duty to prove your works to others.  Rather, let others see your good deeds.  As Christ works in you, let others see, but do not sell yourself.  A time for sowing and a time for harvest.  The sole duty of God's children is to love God and one another.  Remember, even Jesus suffered persecution, and shame.  What is Jesus revealing in your Nazareth?

Christ Among You

Who among you is a widow?  Who among you is an orphan?  Who among you is needy and poor?  The widow is the one left alone in this world.  The orphan is the one abandoned by this world.  And the poor and needy are the ones poor in spirit and in need of hope.  Can you relate?  The Holy Spirit blesses these ones, for they will inherit the Kingdom of God.  The pain, the crushing, and the falling causes rising.  The trials and tribulation usher these ones into the presence of God.  Be very glad, for our reward is great because of this.  I encourage you to encourage others.  I encourage you to do what you can with what God has already blessed you with.  I love you.  Shalom Shalom