I Drank Deep the Wrath of God

 Up until recently, I thought I knew what was going on in my life and why.  I was so sure.  Arrogance.  I have been arrogant and evil toward God and his people.  The truth is I didn't know what was happening to me or why.  God placed inside me his wrath, and he made me drink deep.  I was drunk on his wrath.  My debt piling higher and higher every passing year, to the point of death.  To the point of death spiritually and physically.  Sin was eating me alive from the inside out.  Sin alienated me from God.  Yes, we all sin, but I knew better.  I was shown how to properly conduct myself but I was too proud and too cold in my heart to kneel.  Oh how he has beat me.  Beaten me down and out.  Hallelujah!  He has been beating the warp out of my loom for a minute.  Decades.  It's been a process that nearly took me out.  I didn't want to know God or His Son.  I didn't want to forgive people and I became a collector of debt.  I counted the debts of others and charged interest.  I have been unjust.  He has shown me many mercies and I abused his grace.  I became comfortable hurting people.  I refused to love him or his children.  Now, I drink deep the cup of His Peace.  Blessed are you, Lord our God, King of the Universe, who creates the fruit of the vine.  I pray this testimony brings healing and clarity.  In Jesus name.  Amen.  Shalom Shalom