Our Father in heaven...What words could I use to describe Him? Loving, patient, merciful, faithful, strong, wise, forgiving, and the list goes on. He's always on time. You know, God has a special kind of way of humbling His children. It's not always fire and brimstone like many of us were made to believe. Don't get me wrong, he does go there, but it's not what some people think.
What if I told you that even in God's anger, there is always love. God loves you, he loves all of us. He doesn't want any of us to perish. He hates sin. Not us. And that can be confusing sometimes, especially if our heart and lives are not in alignment with His will. I remember when my heart and life were out of alignment-it was difficult to perceive God. But that's where he was working on my heart and training me to understand Him more.
Recently, God humbled me. At first, he humbled me by bringing to mind he is unpleased with me. My actions had reached His ears and He drew close to me. I wanted to die. I wanted him to end my misery. I didn't want to live anymore. That's what I told Him. He became furious with me. He wasn't mad because of what I felt. He was upset because I responded to him in open rebellion. He was displeased because I rejected faith.
Then, even more recently, He humbled me again. This time though, it was the kind of humbling that grabs hold of your heart and hugs it. He allowed me to see that He sees me. Not just with our personal relationship, but I'm witnessing proof in the reports that are coming in. It felt so goooood to finally be seen and not as someone not worth thinking about. It broke me in the best way. So there's humbling by destruction and there's humbling by love. Jesus loves you and I love you with His love. Shalom Shalom
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